Friday, December 11, 2009

When You're Gone

When you're gone,
my heart shatters
as I sit waist deep
in thoughts of you.
This empty home
has left me alone.
I'm waiting for you
to open the door.
Save me,
I'm drowning in shame.
If you're gone,
maybe life will start anew.
Memories will collapse
in the wrinkle of endless time,
opportunity will knock
at the door of my hollow heart.
I'm home,
emptier than before.
Soon you're gone,
dreams disappear
in the mind of a child,
weary from battling armored reality.
I am who I have lost;
an illusion of fate,
wrapped around your little finger.
I am waiting.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

In Your Heartbeat

I hope you love enough
to last a thousand lifetimes.
May your heart finally
be open and free.
May fireflies circle you in wonder,
lighting up the sky
above withering trees.
I hope you can remember
when teardrops hit the water.
May you wrap your arms around
what was almost lost.
Keep your eyes upon
the patches of bright midnight,
while the pale moon of tomorrow
washes you in vanilla twilight.
Whisper the song
that danced in your heartbeat,
jumping over flames,
falling into forgotten memories.
Smoke twirls under the spark
of a million stars.
I forgive you.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Endless Road

Take me down,
back to shattered memories
of souls I have lost.
Take me back,
before the mistakes
and the final tears of goodbye.
Before I was stripped bare
of who you led me to be,
before I was a shell of a soul,
a broken heart
carried miles and miles away.
But soon the winds of change
will sway the branches in my favor,
while steady feet
hold my head high.
Let the trees bud
with lessons I have learned,
challenges I have conquered,
wisdom I have gained.
Let the world start anew,
from the branch of life,
to Adam and Eve,
to where we have been
and where I will go.
So it is written.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Never to be Forgotten

You were my everything;
a smile in sadness,
the tear shed in strife.
You were my own;
a blackberry thief,
and protector of our castle.
An explorer of the world,
lover of the rain.
The risen gates
have opened for you,
a beautiful legend
in your own right.
Always beside me,
even now,
never to be forgotten.
I'll love you forever;
my companion,
my listener,
my best friend.

Shaken Road

Hold onto my hand,
I'll show you the way.
They've left us here
why should we stay?
Give me a reason
and I'll follow you back home.

The road keeps shaking,
we could fall through.
Can you feel the spaces,
the hollow souls we knew?
The broken people,
we stepped over them.

We've hit a wall,
there's no place to go.
You ask who I am,
why pretend you don't know?
Don't hide behind questions,
we can face this together.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Who We Used To Be

I remember
who we used to be.
Lying under the stars,
dreams twinkling
as we pointed into the night sky.
Catching clouds in memory;
an elephant, a clown,
the teddy bear in our arms.
Counting blades of grass,
browned wildflowers crinkling
in the loose grip of a child.
Never wondering
what comes next;
living for each moment,
and the freedom of comfort.
Wherever we were,
wherever we've been,
two lives
slowly separate.
Times are changing,
and we are forgotten.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Once Upon a Time

There was a time
when we knew to forget;
grasping winds in open palms,
holding onto lost memories.
Our smiles
always brighter than the sun,
our laughter
echoing in the wind.
Our path was hidden,
and we lit the dark,
fighting off dragons with
cardboard swords.
We were princesses and fairies,
and famous for a day,
no stopping us.
Living while we could,
invincible all the same.
We dared to dream,
to believe in possibilities.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Memories For My Father

I miss your smile,
your laugh echoing as I ran,
trying to catch rays of sun
between my fingertips.
Your feet shaking the ground,
trying to run,
to catch me if I would fall.
The moments
when the world was ours
for the taking,
dancing in the rain,
falling under the wind,
coloring the sky.
Your hollow heartbeat
never supporting me as I grew,
your little girl.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


If I waited for you,
then why did you leave?
There are no lost memories
no tears on my sleeve.
If you wanted me to cry,
you could have chosen me.

A heart beats in rhythm,
your words are a rhyme.
You can sing me to sleep,
but we're running out of time.
No one's listening,
can you scream that I'm yours?

Words are only words,
they can't feel my pain.
You've broken me to pieces,
but what will you gain?
My heart has sharp corners,
tell me if I start to bleed.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Moving On

Take a look behind you,
maybe you'll see me.
You've already left me here,
do you know who I used to be?
I'm waiting for the moment
when two hearts beat as one.

When I push you away,
I need you the most.
If I wanted you near,
would you pull me close?
I'll let you know
when I lose my breathe again.

There's a chance that now
we're completely alone.
There is no innocence
in the world we are shown.
I'm forever blind,
and I can't find myself.

I've left you behind,
you're not visible anymore.
I've forgotten you,
who were you before?
Let me move on
so you can know how it feels.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Over My Heart

You've broken me,
and I'm still bleeding.
Hand over my heart,
just to see if it's beating.
I can't bear to look
and see what I've become.

Hold out a hand,
and take a shard.
A cracked image
of who you are.
I saw myself in you
before we disappeared.

Paint an apology
that I can frame.
Maybe then we'll know
who was to blame.
If you've found yourself,
help me to learn how.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

As Long

As long as I knew,
you were raiding my heart.
Somewhere along the road,
we fell apart.
On the corner of first
and nowhere street.

Searing tears fall,
you've burned my heart black.
I waited far too long
for you to come back.
All I needed was a call
that never came.

A light burns fast
when the candle is drowned.
One tear escapes,
and we can't be found.
As long as you loved me,
I was there.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

You Think You Know

You can't fill empty spaces
that lay within my heart.
Can you hear the tears
that are tearing us apart?
You think you know me,
it's hard for me to tell.

You've broken my fingers,
I can't extend my hand.
If you want me to save you,
I won't do it on command.
You think you know me,
but your words aren't mine.

Your voice is a stranger,
who did you used to be?
If you look in the mirror,
you won't see me.
You think you know me,
we're too different to tell.

You used to hold me,
now I stand alone.
You think you've saved me
from the world I'm not shown.
You think you know me?
I don't even know who I am.

Thursday, June 11, 2009


Silence is deafening,
but it's your voice I hear.
Glass keeps shattering,
you've made it so clear.
I keep fading,
you're pulling me away.

My eyes are blind,
but it's you I see.
Yet there's no one here,
no one's guiding me.
If you were here,
I know you'd take my hand.

A heart that's stopped,
is still alive.
But there's only a moment
left to survive.
My heart's still beating,
I know it's because of you.

Saturday, May 30, 2009


Hush little baby,
don't you cry.
I feel your tears,
I'm by your side.
Lay still in the night,
keep your chin up high.
Breathe one last breath,
a silent goodbye.

Hush little baby,
don't say a word.
Don't make a sound
until you're heard.
Wander all alone
in the darkest cold.
Smile softly for me,
a smile bought and sold.

Hush little baby,
don't leave me here.
You can learn from me
and all that I fear.
I'm speaking softly,
listen closely to me.
Watch my eyes,
it's you I see.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


Can you tell me
if you've found a way?
I'm losing pieces
of myself every day.
Can you see me
for who I once was?

I've reached the end,
I've seen the past.
A light of hope
can flicker fast.
I'll reach for you,
will you take my hand?

You lost your way,
there's no turning back.
If you retrace your steps
you'll find what you lack.
I've walked this road,
can you find what I could not?

Monday, April 20, 2009

When You Need Me

The days pass by
and you think nothing is changing.
But while you're thinking,
the whole world is rearranging.
Take a look,
the world hasn't turned its back.

But your heart keeps stopping,
and the world keeps turning.
Your dreams have shattered,
but you keep learning.
Hold your chin up,
you know I'll stand by you.

Holding on isn't easy
when you're hanging on the edge.
I'll be here when you're ready,
don't fall off of the ledge.
I can lift you up
anytime you want me to.

Friday, April 10, 2009

What's Wrong With Me

I'm hearing voices in my sleep,
waiting for some answers
when all I hear are questions.
I'm feeling like I'm headed
for a breakdown.
How did I lose my mind?

When did I begin
correcting myself in public?
I'm tired of looking away,
dodging glances in the street
for no reason.
Who were they,
and who did I used to be?

I hear them whisper my name,
and it makes me think
that there must be something
wrong with me.
I've spent so many hours thinking
that somehow I've lost my mind.
Where did my life go?

No one knows what it's like
to be on the edge of breaking down.
Can anyone pull me back
after I've started to jump?
I've been out of the shadows so long,
I can't remember who I was.
How can I find my way?

Monday, March 9, 2009

In the End

Four minutes ago,
I'll never see you again.
The clock keeps ticking,
this could be the end.
How long will it be
before we disappear?

There's a world I see inside you,
it's waiting to come to life.
You've always been a dreamer,
but reality was in your eyes.
Clear away the cobwebs,
do you see me for who I am?

We only have a minute,
I won't take somebody's place.
Turn around for a moment,
can you recognize my face?
Don't you think we've waited
long enough to know?

There's no time left for us,
the clock has run out.
There's no more time left
to wonder or doubt.
Will you be there for me
in the end?

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Away From Here

Take my hand,
let's run away.
There's no one here,
no reason to stay.
Come run with me,
maybe we'll float to the stars.

We found a way when we began.
We've reached the edge,
let's jump while we can.
If we make it through,
I'd love to tell them all.

Keep your chin up,
don't look down.
We're falling fast,
let's hope we don't drown.
Those tears of yours
don't ever seem to stop.

There's not a trace,
where have we been?
What kind of hope
can we find within?
There's a fading sadness,
will we ever be the same?

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Along the Way

A thousand tears
I'll cry for you.
It's been so long,
it came so soon.
Did we miss it somehow,
did we see it along the way?

This road has crumbled,
there's a hole in the moon.
We walked the line
and fell right through.
Sometimes I wonder,
what if we could fly?

Let's find a place
where we can escape.
I'll take you with me,
we'll go away.
Just take my hand,
I'll guide you through the dark.

It's a long road,
do you think you can make it?
You fake a smile,
but can you take it?
Even if you fall,
I'll carry you.

Don't tell me
that it's too late.
I know you're listening,
I know you're awake.
Can't we pave the way
once again?

Maybe You Can Help Me...

Hi everyone,
As you can see, this isn't exactly a poem.
Just wanted to ask a couple of questions,
for those of you that are willing to answer.

Well, basically I've added a bit of a minor
plot twist in my book so as to not make it cliche.
But, because I want to keep my book from ending
on a "cliche-note" (haha!), I need to make sure I don't
have a cliche sort of ending...obviously. My my my,
I'm a bit redundant today...

But really, I need feedback. Gina, Maria, Maddie...
(and I think Kenzie...)
You all know about it. But if any of my other blogger
buddies want to help out and need a hint, I'm here!

That's all, folks!
And please, just this once,
put your heart on THIS paper!
(Work with me here, I know it's not really paper...)
- Bela

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Little Girl

Isn't anybody going to listen
to my story?
I've lost myself from writing
it over and over again.

Well, have you seen her face?
Is her smile unknown?
Is she so full of innocence,
from a world never shown?

Have you heard her calling,
beckoning to you?
Have you looked for the girl
with the smile of truth?

Can you save her from sorrow?
can you erase her past?
Will you reach out and hold her,
or just bring her back?

This little girl is yours,
don't let her run from a chance.
Find her, help her,
and maybe she'll love you again.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Fade Away

You have faded me.
I'm disappearing
under the night sky.
You have erased me,
and I'm gone.
Into a world of spaces
in my mind.

I'm so alone,
so lost without you.
I'm dying and trying
to make it home.
And I'm fighting my way
back to you.

Am I out of reach?
Am I on my own?
Have you left me alone
in a world out of time?
Did you see what I knew
through my eyes?

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Changing Me

Second chances don't matter
when people choose not to change.
The truth hides in their eyes,
but it's constantly rearranged.

It's hanging on their tongues,
it's lying on their backs.
The burden they choose to carry
will bring about the courage they lack.

You've tried so hard,
but you have failed to change me.
Keep your eyes open for now
and maybe you'll find the key.

But for now stay in your corner
and continue to slip through the cracks.
But when you turn your back to me,
remember there's no turning back.