Memories For My Father

I miss your smile,
your laugh echoing as I ran,
trying to catch rays of sun
between my fingertips.
Your feet shaking the ground,
trying to run,
to catch me if I would fall.
The moments
when the world was ours
for the taking,
dancing in the rain,
falling under the wind,
coloring the sky.
Your hollow heartbeat
never supporting me as I grew,
always
your little girl.

Painstaking

If I waited for you,
then why did you leave?
There are no lost memories
no tears on my sleeve.
If you wanted me to cry,
you could have chosen me.

A heart beats in rhythm,
your words are a rhyme.
You can sing me to sleep,
but we're running out of time.
No one's listening,
can you scream that I'm yours?

Words are only words,
they can't feel my pain.
You've broken me to pieces,
but what will you gain?
My heart has sharp corners,
tell me if I start to bleed.

Moving On

Take a look behind you,
maybe you'll see me.
You've already left me here,
do you know who I used to be?
I'm waiting for the moment
when two hearts beat as one.

When I push you away,
I need you the most.
If I wanted you near,
would you pull me close?
I'll let you know
when I lose my breathe again.

There's a chance that now
we're completely alone.
There is no innocence
in the world we are shown.
I'm forever blind,
and I can't find myself.

I've left you behind,
you're not visible anymore.
I've forgotten you,
who were you before?
Let me move on
so you can know how it feels.

Over My Heart

You've broken me,
and I'm still bleeding.
Hand over my heart,
just to see if it's beating.
I can't bear to look
and see what I've become.

Hold out a hand,
and take a shard.
A cracked image
of who you are.
I saw myself in you
before we disappeared.

Paint an apology
that I can frame.
Maybe then we'll know
who was to blame.
If you've found yourself,
help me to learn how.

As Long

As long as I knew,
you were raiding my heart.
Somewhere along the road,
we fell apart.
On the corner of first
and nowhere street.

Searing tears fall,
you've burned my heart black.
I waited far too long
for you to come back.
All I needed was a call
that never came.

A light burns fast
when the candle is drowned.
One tear escapes,
and we can't be found.
As long as you loved me,
I was there.

You Think You Know

You can't fill empty spaces
that lay within my heart.
Can you hear the tears
that are tearing us apart?
You think you know me,
it's hard for me to tell.

You've broken my fingers,
I can't extend my hand.
If you want me to save you,
I won't do it on command.
You think you know me,
but your words aren't mine.

Your voice is a stranger,
who did you used to be?
If you look in the mirror,
you won't see me.
You think you know me,
we're too different to tell.

You used to hold me,
now I stand alone.
You think you've saved me
from the world I'm not shown.
You think you know me?
I don't even know who I am.

Survivor

Silence is deafening,
but it's your voice I hear.
Glass keeps shattering,
you've made it so clear.
I keep fading,
you're pulling me away.

My eyes are blind,
but it's you I see.
Yet there's no one here,
no one's guiding me.
If you were here,
I know you'd take my hand.

A heart that's stopped,
is still alive.
But there's only a moment
left to survive.
My heart's still beating,
I know it's because of you.